90% of people dislike getting up early in the morning and if you belong in the 10% bracket then you’re too happy or you’re a steroid head who cannot disturb their dawn workout schedule. In all seriousness as a parent with eid it is difficult to get up – note this doesn’t apply to every parent with eid – my higher dose of medication can prove difficult to break a slumber if I take it too late or I’ve missed a couple of days.
So straight away I felt like a failure. But you’re unconscious ability to parent kicks in even when your mind is a beach; flooded with emotion, waves of anxiety lashing up up and down the rocks, overly sized foam tide heads whining and whinging. Keeping these natural elements at bay proved tiring yet I still got my child to school on time. Anyone without eid would say: “hey, you woke up later than intended yet in just fifteen minutes you managed to get up get ready and get your child to school! Well done you! Wooo!”
I can see this positive view now but at the time I panicked, sweated and damn near nearly lost my cool because in my head, I’ve overthought, what if her grandad waiting to drive her to school thinks I’m incapable of being a parent, what if I become the hot topic in the staff room today.
I’ve really been trying to lower my expectations of being a perfect parent. Honestly how can I try and have a good day after the thoughts and feelings of the morning. I still managed to get my child to school promptly but I’m still a failure for not waking up on time.
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