When you feel empty and there are no words to guide you through. No words to construct a sentence to be vulnerable to tell someone how you feel. What do you do? Do you drink a bottle of wine? Do you get stoned? Do you stuff your face with cheap crisps? Or does your self sabotage go deeper than that? There’s no concentration, there’s no communication, there’s no immediate cure. What happens next? How do you get through tonight? How do you get through tomorrow? How do you keep swimming against the current to resume your natural ebb and flow?
Classic quoted instagram pictures “just keep going no matter how hard the journey is” “there’s always light in the dark” that’s okay, that may work for some but for EID that means as much as remind me to get milk. Irrelevant verbiage and patronising comments can sometimes leave the deflation obviously invisible. Empty glasses, empty conversations, empty actions. Why do we allow ourselves to let this affect us so? The reflection can be more difficult than the bare train of thought.
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